They were talking about this website on the radio as I was getting up this morning*, and man, I wish it had existed when I was at Durham.
As I was reading through the pages, I kept finding exact descriptions of how I remember feeling, like surreal flashbacks to two years ago. Lethargy? Check. Feelings of inferiority? Check. Perfectionist thinking; increased tearfulness (times a million); feeling not like yourself; anxiety... etc etc etc. If someone had shown me something like this, maybe I wouldn't have spent so much time being angry because I couldn't figure out what was making me sad. (Which is apparently also a normal thing to do.)
I'm still almost sort of disappointed with myself, because I always thought I was the one among my friends who was cheerful and had a naturally high mood and so on... Ah well, life goes on, I am still awesome.
To-day I am even more determined to avoid such silliness henceforth and have a great time.
In related news, it is wonderfully autumnal (my mum just turned the heating on for the first time), and not having school to go back to is odd. I miss it. I'm really looking forward to next year.
Anyway, I have stuff to do! I'm making an attempt to structure my days better, because I meant to have a job by now, and aimless idleness is getting pretty old. To-day: Japanese writing practice, a chapter in my Ruby on Rails book (which I have shamefully neglected since graduation), and... a bunch of reading and gaming. 8D
(It's actually a little difficult not to keep adding things to that list, but if I don't pace myself I'll try to do everything at once and never get anywhere. XD)
*Aside: I don't know if I'm going crazy, but Woman's Hour seems to be doing more worthwhile items lately. I still haven't forgiven them for the completely unironic item on 'Why Men Just Can't Communicate'**, though.
**And I quote (yes, I wrote this down), "Why is it ok for women to go out for a girly lunch, but not for men to go to the pub with the lads? And why, after half an hour in each other's company do women know everything about eachother, and men know nothing?" (Apparently it's because men are competitive.)
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As I was reading through the pages, I kept finding exact descriptions of how I remember feeling, like surreal flashbacks to two years ago. Lethargy? Check. Feelings of inferiority? Check. Perfectionist thinking; increased tearfulness (times a million); feeling not like yourself; anxiety... etc etc etc. If someone had shown me something like this, maybe I wouldn't have spent so much time being angry because I couldn't figure out what was making me sad. (Which is apparently also a normal thing to do.)
I'm still almost sort of disappointed with myself, because I always thought I was the one among my friends who was cheerful and had a naturally high mood and so on... Ah well, life goes on, I am still awesome.
To-day I am even more determined to avoid such silliness henceforth and have a great time.
In related news, it is wonderfully autumnal (my mum just turned the heating on for the first time), and not having school to go back to is odd. I miss it. I'm really looking forward to next year.
Anyway, I have stuff to do! I'm making an attempt to structure my days better, because I meant to have a job by now, and aimless idleness is getting pretty old. To-day: Japanese writing practice, a chapter in my Ruby on Rails book (which I have shamefully neglected since graduation), and... a bunch of reading and gaming. 8D
(It's actually a little difficult not to keep adding things to that list, but if I don't pace myself I'll try to do everything at once and never get anywhere. XD)
*Aside: I don't know if I'm going crazy, but Woman's Hour seems to be doing more worthwhile items lately. I still haven't forgiven them for the completely unironic item on 'Why Men Just Can't Communicate'**, though.
**And I quote (yes, I wrote this down), "Why is it ok for women to go out for a girly lunch, but not for men to go to the pub with the lads? And why, after half an hour in each other's company do women know everything about eachother, and men know nothing?" (Apparently it's because men are competitive.)
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